Awwww my first post. When I think about blogging I think about other people doing it, never me. I actually feel the need to do it, I was a lock and key journal keeper as a child and most of my adult life, and somehow that ended. I remember the day it did, my last child left the house and I thought, wow now what. Time to travel? Get serious about my relationship(divorced about 5 years then), WHAT???? I decided to uproot myself and move to sunny California for 5 months.....goodness empty nest syndrome makes you do crazy stuff.
So today I will try and start getting these feelings back out. I surely don't want to vent my issues everyday, but most days lately I could run down the street screaming and pulling out my own hair. Work is disastrous and someone (yea me) thought it was a good idea to go back to school and become a Nurse Practitioner. Truly I could solve my work problem if I let one person have it and school, well anyone who knows me knows I LOVE IT!!!! I will be the perpetual student forever. As my husband so fondly says, when you think your standing in a pile of s*&t, if you look down, you are standing on someones shoulders.....I know I am.
Ok, so in a nutshell....I am a 40 y.o. mother of two beautiful, and when I say beautiful trust me, grown women. One is a proud mom herself, with the will of a lion. The other is a Staff Sgt. in the United States Air Force (can you tell I am proud of my girls). I remarried about 2 years ago, and well, change is hard. When you spend 7 years alone it is hard to want to share the bed, bathroom, and your life, but the man was persistant. My husband sure does not have it easy, he has stepped into a life of a mother of two and a very independent woman that doesn't take any, and I repeat any, crap. Most days I feel like marriage is the hardest thing I do, grad school isn't even this hard. But, we plug along and every night I lay down and think wow, what the hell am I doing with my life......and I have done this to myself :).......but blessings are in abundance, my grandson is 6 months old and a shining star in my heart, my father received the gift of a kidney transplant this year, and I still have a grandmother around that spoils me rotten.....awwww see when you stop and think of all the good things....the other crap doesn't matter!!!!
