Long time no type...

I am so busy, wrapped up in school, work and having the baby home with his momma. The last part is the only good thing that doesn't stress me out. School now has become a maybe, I don't think that for this region work will be so easy to find, so what to do....stop going and leave this dream behind?? Continue and pray for the best but be left with the burden of my loans???? Neither choice is good, time to give this to the big guy and let me decide for me. The other thing, why can't money grow on trees. I just want a small one out back, small bills, just 20's.....awwww to dream :)

I am just so damn tired!

Ok so I am an employee down and glad to be rid of her, but after already being one employee down, here I am at two. So all I do at work is run, run, and run some more. If anyone can seem to help me get these damn docs into shape and have them stop driving me crazy I would appreciate it. I feel as though between school, work and the new pup I can't get it together. I feel as though I am doing a lot of NOTHING.....same for work, I got lots to do and can't finish one thing.
All this helps me not to think about May coming and my best bud is leaving....maybe this is GODs way of helping me out.

Thanks I guess.

This week must end NOW!

Ok now I have my daughter coming home....to some this is a good thing, but this child is 22 and brings with her my grandson. I love that he will be home, but I just don't know how I am going to handle all this stress. 2 graduate classes, a new puppy, my other daughter being deployed to Iraq, and a job that is about to get really stressful!!!! How do I do this?

I do support our troops...but....

I keep praying that I will awaken to find that my daughter is not leaving and life will be great. I can't even bring myself to book my flight to see her off...If I don't book, maybe GOD will let her stay." I know this is not his will, I know that defending our country is her job, but as her mom, I want her job to be staying here, and talking to me everyday as we do. She is my best, absoulte best friend.....what do you do without your best friend :-(

So unfair....goodness I have to get out of this funk!

I have come to a crossroad

I finally thought that my employee who has been torturing the rest of my staff was leaving, she resigned on Monday and then yesterday one of the docs wants to keep her so she is fighting tooth and nail for her. What do I do, truthfully if she stays she can be an assest but she is miserable, so it isn't worth a damn. If she stays I may lose two other people, and really I don't want to stay if she does. Do I help and encourage the others to leave? Yes, as a good manager I would let them go gracefully because I totally understand their needs to be happy. Do I stay? This could be an opportunity for later, what do I do?? I write because I can't scream and I am tooooo damn tired. I wish I knew the answer.

Protect and Serve she must!!!

My daughter is being deployed. I know that as a mother I have experienced very little in the way of issues with my daughters, and right now nothing compares to the pain I feel knowing that she may be in harms way. Anyone who thinks, hey you knew this when she enlisted, yea I did, but it doesn't make it hurt less. Actually, it hurts like nothing before, she may be a Staff Sgt to the US Air Force, but she is my baby, and this is killing me. Please let it be safe!!!! Please, good Lord don't let my baby get hurt.

CLASS OVER!!!!!

Now I can just recover from surgery! I don't understand why I am taking so long to recup. Turning 40 is a bi@tch, I feel like an old lady. Healing is taking longer than I expect and this is so not fun. And tonight is the night, my husband will have to make dinner!!! I had my mother around, frozen dinners that I made 2 weeks prior, but now, we are done to him cooking....pray for me!